Tis the season.... for what though??? Tis the season for what?? Santa? Christmas music? Random gifts? Debt-building spending? Or is it what we are truly grateful for? For me, spending time with my family... starting with Sean then brothers and sisters and parents. This time is so precious to me. It is a time for thinking of others. Not just giving gifts, but giving of ourselves. The gift of time. The gift of prayer. The gift of thankfulness. I am so thankful this year. (I know I'm suppose to do this at thanksgiving, but I'm doing it now) I'm thankful for my Lord Jesus who came to this earth as payment for my debt of sin.... paying the price for me when I didn't deserve it.... to give me hope, peace, unconditional love and a future in Him.
I'm thankful for my wonderful, loving husband, who has been everything I could have hoped for, and more, during a long awaited, and much prayed and dreamed for, pregnancy. I know this is not just my pregnancy... my experience, but OURS. He has taken care of me in the smallest of ways, been sensitive to me at times I didn't expect him to be and has picked up more than his share of the load either while I was down emotionally, energy-wise or physically. I can never, ever thank him enough! He has helped make dinner (during my so-far 4 week quest to cook at home) and clean up dinner, helped do laundry and oversaw an entire master bathroom remodel and all its grueling details! And now he insists on getting the nursery painted and ready for me to set up for our little girl by Christmas! ... the best gift of all!!! God has truly blessed me with the BEST husband in the universe!!
I'm thankful for this child, that has been growing inside of me. Psalm 139 has always meant so much to me, but it is off the charts now as I personally experience God forming her in my womb by the intimate work of His hands. I'm thankful for this new blessing of hope and healing and restoration as the last two years, at this time, have been very emotional and difficult for me. Missing my mom and changes in family dynamics (nothing bad, just normal change) made it a very emotional season. I even found myself hating Christmas music. But I was pleasantly surprised to find that I'm back in the Christmas spirit... full force!! Although I still have no decorations up, no tree, due to my energy level falling all of the sudden. But that's ok. I am enjoying all the lights and sounds around me each and every day! I have baked and had my fill of christmas music all day! I'm loving it. And all because of this little girl inside of me... the gift of God to me and Sean!
Yes, this year I'm overloaded with gratitude and joy... also for my friends that have continued to surround me in love and support. I'm overwhelmed by these friendships. I only hope I am capable of showing that love to others when the time comes. Though I'm sure all my love will be directed to one little person for awhile, as she transforms my life and all that I am about, in one definite second as she is placed in my arms. Oh how thankful I am, ahead of time, for that precious moment, that I will get to share with the man of my dreams.
This Christmas, I have all I need right within my reach. I need nothing more than these blessings God has given to me. Merry Christmas to ME!!! And I wish you all a very Merry Christmas too!!! May God become real to you in ways you never knew, blessing you in ways you never dreamed possible!!! God Bless you and yours!!!!
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