My life just changed.... A LOT!!!! I'M PREGNANT!!!

It all happened Memorial Day weekend of 2010. But let me back up just a little first. Most of you know I just don't ovulate on my own. However last year I happened to "O" 3x. The last being in December. March came along and I had some different signs of "O" than usual but was followed as suspected with my period. The crazy thing is... only a few weeks later I had my normal signs of "O" (breast tenderness)! I was shocked! Its unheard of. I have never "O" 2 months in a row! Not even on drugs, I don't think! So I waited the typical 11 days for my period to start (this is the only clockwork my body knows). Well, that day came and went. It was a Thursday. And usually if I'm a day late, I'm freaking out! But I guess after so many years and so many negative pg tests, I blew it off. I can't remember what I was thinking... as I went out that night to an Orthopedic Rep dinner at FIVE restaurant where I had, oh I don't know, 3 glasses of wine and then coffee just so I could drive home! (what? it was free!) But then Friday came and went (not sure where my mind was still) and then Saturday came and I decided to take the dreaded test. Except this time I had a feeling. And I was right! It was immediately positive!! I didn't really believe it so I chose not to tell Sean yet (protecting him I guess) and went out and bought another brand of test and refilled my prenatals that I hadn't been taking. Sunday I woke up for work and pee'd on two sticks, of different brands, at the same time. I figured if they're both positive then it must be right! Well I only had to wait for about 45 seconds before they were both brightly positive!! I was amazed! And yet I felt reserved, protective and cautious. I still did not want to get my heart involved until we knew for sure and until I knew it would last past a week. Sean took me to work that morning, and as much as I wanted to tell him, I knew I couldn't spring this on him and then leave him for 12 hours! So I chose to wait. And wait I did... all day. It was the longest day ever! That night we went out to dinner at Sequoia Brewery. I didn't even tell him during dinner. All these years!! I've waited all these years and dreamt of telling him in some creative, romantic way! With infertility there is no surprise. He was always in the know. And now! Now I have the opportunity... and I could come up with nothing!!! NOTHING!! My mind was blank. So after dinner, we walked over to the pretty area of the plaza at Perrin and Champlain near the water fountains, and perched upon the retaining wall, I told him "I have to tell you something". He just said "oh no. now what?" Well his first response was shock. But as it settled in, his face softened to a sweet smile. After we processed for a few minutes, he says "so I guess I should hug you or something, right?" I said, "yah that would be nice". (we were both laughing) Then he says "I suppose you want me to pick you up and twirl you around right?" I said "oh no! We're way past that" lol I mean seriously. It sounds all romantic but it's been 10 years. And right then, we were still VERY leary.

Well that's the very beginning. The beginning of our lives changing for the good, forever! As I was reading through the previous blogs here I could see so evident the work that God was doing in me. Even when I wrote the last blog post, I was only a couple weeks away from conceiving. Seeing the change in my heart that God was doing and knowing and trusting His plan for my life. And now, I'm practicing that all over again... in a very different scenario. I'm almost 10 weeks now and I'm very VERY excited! And yet despite the spiritual breakthrough from fear I had last week, I still find myself being a little cautious. But I have heard the Lord speak already to me that this is His promise fulfilled. It is awesome to know, beyond a doubt, that God really does fulfill His promises to us!!! Thank you Lord ... for your love, your protection and your everlasting promises.