Life keeps going....

Well... I thought I would blog more here but its just not happening. Life is busy I guess. And I forget. but... Things have been more peaceful for me lately. God is so good. I feel Sean and I are on the right (and same) path toward whatever God's ultimate plan is. We are not totally sure what the end result will be. But we are trying to be obedient in the little steps God asks us to take. The first being to sell my car. It went bye bye on Tuesday. I was sad. Very sad. That car was so me! And so I felt a part of me went with it. I was always content in that car, never prideful, felt it was a more humble, although still nice, car. But maybe there was pride in that too. So we are now a one car, one motorcycle family. The money will go toward the repairs we need on the house, which is the second thing we feel we're supposed to be doing. Getting our house ready to sell. Although not definite if or when we are to sell. But God will show us that too. So.... just trying to hear God.

I have gotten a little caught up in taking care of myself because I realize I just can't take care of Sean the way I want. And so I throw myself into this other stuff for me. So I'm also learning to balance that and keep him in the loop of my life. Sometimes that means sacrificing what I want for the good of the both of us. I'm learning. Not that I never knew this before. But after 16 years of marriage, some things you have to relearn.

That's all for now. Not too exciting. But this is my life. . . . .

It's not about me....

Lord, I surrender everything to you.... everything that I am, everything that I hope to be. Even my deepest passion and burning desire for missions. I lay it at your feet. Because ultimately it is not about me, but about you. My one goal is to bring light to the excellancy of your name (1Peter 2:9-10). Am I doing that? Do I glorify you at home? Does my husband see your excellancy and the light of your glory in me, the way I talk, act, am at home? Do I glorify you at work? Are people made aware of your awesomeness and power by the way I live, speak and breathe? Lord, help me to glorify you. As has been my prayer for the last 3 years, Lord, take out all that is in me that is not of you, and fill me to overflowing with your mercy, grace and power by your Spirit in me!

Trusting...

I am learning, all over again, to trust God. No matter what my circumstances look like, I can trust and have faith in His neverending love for me. What an amazing God I serve!! He loves me so much that He laid down His life for me. That is never-changing. Everyday (especially lately), emotions change. From moment to moment I don't know how I will think, feel, speak of my troubles. But HE is never-changing! He loves me no matter what. His purposes are true for me no matter what! He is working His plan in my life EVEN NOW! And that is all I need to hope for! Thank you Lord!

This is my life...as is

I thought I would create a new blog. For journaling maybe. My life is so upside down right now. ... so uncertain. So this is my life... as it is. Just thought I would post my thoughts, lessons, tears, .... whatever may come. Maybe nobody will read it. Maybe they will and God will use it in their own circumstances. We'll just wait and see....